Just wanted to encourage you to post and vent and talk thru this.
Do you ahve a therapist to help you thru these feelings as well as learn coping skills.
Perhaps you guys could go to couples counseling to work on your marriage.
I am sorry that you are feeling so depressed.
Being bipolar can be a full time job and you have children to raise which is already a full time job.
You must be exhausted.
((((HUGS))))
bizi