Ugh, I'm really struggling. I have absolutely no energy. If I wasn't on all these meds I would be suicidal I know. I'm struggling with agoraphobia and its embarrassing. I haven't left my apt in like 2 months. I feel afraid to leave. And bc I sleep or lay down so much my body really hurts when I move. I really need an AD but they seem to make me nervous. I want to cry so bad but these meds are keeping me from being able to. I missed therapy on Friday, it's just so hard when your in this severe of a depression. I hate Christmas, it's just so stressful. I see all you guys out living life and I'm like what's wrong with me? I'm sleeping like 14 hours a day. I just don't know what to do.

Anybody have any suggestions?