I've been in a relationship for more than a year, I've reached to a point where I can't take it any longer.

I am lonely, I was going a psychologist but stopped due to financial constraints, I have no one to talk to, I have no support and I am literally at the point holding two knives in the past making myself bleed has helped smoothen and relax me and I'm thinking of doing the same now.

I can't even explain what I am thinking and I apologize for that, its just I'm not well. I'm like a dead person but still breathing.