Hi Torel
I think you're approachin the situation in a very sensible way.
The best place to start is with a professional diagnosis, regardless of what that diagnosis may be.
I understand when you say you can identify traits within yourself but not necessarily all of them - because you wouldn't have to for a diagnosis- just 5 of the 9 criteria so it can look so different in all of us.
Keep us up to date and let us know how you get along.
I know what a difficult time this must be for you right now.
Take care.