I have been doing so well for seven years. I have had times of depression and stuff don't get me wrong - but the last few days have been days from hell.
The flashbacks are too much. HE constantly comes back and hurts me again and I cannot stop him. I cannot sleep - he comes so quickly when my defenses are down. 4 days and only about 10 hours sleep in all that time - I am so tired.
Called for an emergency meeting with my P doctor - tomorrow - oh no itt is now today. I am starting to go in and out of being here and it is scary when he comes.
tried everything i used before and started yesterday with an emergency meeting with a new social worker ---- spent most of the session crying.
it is early in the morning and again i was awoken by him being here and all of a sudden i remembered you guys.
Maybe I cannot talk to someone in person or on the phone du to the middle of the night situation but i figured i can talk sort of by being here.
when he comes he is so hurting me and i scared i alone im want a safe touch and talk i want him go away but he dont listen.