It could be possible you are Aromantic and not Asexual. I have met a few Asexuals over the years that are in loving relationships with other people and my Wife even thought she was asexual because she never enjoyed sex before she was raped and always thought it was something she had to do but she is pregnant now with her third daughter (our second together) and even though we don’t make love very often because we both have low sex drives when we do we enjoy it. Most Asexual people want to have relationships with people but they don’t want sex. Aromantics on the other hand, don’t want either and just prefer being friends with people.