There's obvious favoritism in my family. My parents, especially my mother, favor my youngest brother. Im the middle child and the unfavored one. She prefers to have dinner with him, she is more generous to him, more patient with him. If there's family news, im the last to know. One time they brought my mother to the hospital because she was ill. Nobody contacted me in the office or on my mobile. I didnt know about it till i got home from work, then i went straight to the hospital. Then my mom said "im already in the hospital and you dont even know." She said it like i have no care in the world. Then she compares me to my younger brother.

Sometimes i'm resentful of him already. Sometimes i don't want to see any of them, i spend more time at work, with friends, or somewhere else. I wonder sometimes if my mother was ever proud of me. Because she's so proud of my brother and posts it on social media, but not once about me. Sometimes im just angry at them, which fuels the distance between us even more. I dont want this, I want a closer relationship with them, but it hurts too much sometimes.

What should i do? I don't know how to deal with it sometimes. It's been this way ever since we were little, and now that we're adults.