Thanks, cjb221177. Yes, I agree routine is important and I do stay pretty close one. That's a great idea about the allowance and keeping track in the journal. Thanks a lot.

Little Lulu, I really don't have anyone I can talk to but my therapist. The holidays really do bother me. I thought I was doing better this year but maybe not, especially since i found out my daughter is going to be gone on Christmas. I've spent the last 38 years with her on Christmas, so it's going to seem empty without her. Thanks a lot for your input.