Considering that was my first post on this site I am overwhelmed by the kindness and compassion shown by you all. Everything you have said resonates with me and now I know we are all part of this much larger support network I'll always feel like I have someone to talk to. For what it's worth, Saturday evening wasn't as bad as Friday. I did buy some alcohol free beer yesterday ... As a scottish man, if news of this gets back to the motherland I might get banished! But saying that it kinda scratched the itch I had so maybe there is some benefit to it after all.
To those in the same situation as myself or to those of you just in need of someone to talk to, I'm free to talk anytime.