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Originally Posted by Ithikari
Lately in the past 2 weeks I've been doing, terrible, in ways to comfort myself which I know is idiotic, have been either taking a lot of over the counter pills (100 multivitamin pills in one week (to cause hypovitaminosis) and a whole bottle of Nyquil in one day) and constant burning myself on-top of picking the wounds.
My emotions is like a coin being flipped every hour and ranges from happy to suicidal ideation (the pills).
However, I cannot go to the hospital or see a doctor. It costs me roughly $400 - $600 in Canada (not a Canadian citizen) which is more then what I earn in a week which then, in turn causes my emotions yet again to skyrocket out of control and makes me, yet again, wanting to commit suicide or continue hurting myself.
It's extremely ****ed up and becoming unbearable to even live with.
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I urge you to go to the emergency room and tell them what you have been doing. I also want to caution you that instead of killing yourself
outright and immediately you might destroy your liver or give yourself brain or kidney damage by the overdoses you are giving yourself. I imagine people who toy with suicide think they will just peacefully slip away, but the reality is they might end up in a coma, with excruciating pain, or with permanent, painful but not immediately life-threatening disability far worse than they can imagine. Your life is more important than the cost of a doctor visit.
Get help now.