Yes, definitely, this is not just you. I have a theory that people don't like to believe abuse stories because it makes them uncomfortable. When I started with my therapist I told him about my crazy mom, and he didn't seem to grasp the severity of how ill she was no matter what I said. In fact I did and still do avoid specific stories because I assume no one will believe them. I told him about how distant my dad was, how he never wanted me around and abandoned me... don't think he bought it. One day near the end of a session my therapist told me to call and ask my dad something or other, and I was furiously angry and said "you know no one believes anything I say about my parents, but I cant call my dad and ask him that because he'll just hang up on me." It was like a light switched in his head that maybe I wasn't lying and to maybe take my word on it and be compassionate. About a year passed and in this time my therapist also saw my husband... one time I said I wish I could bring my mom here so he would know what I'm dealing with, and my therapist replied "you don't have to, your husband told me how crazy she was so I know." The implication was clearly that because it came from a third party, my husband, the information was believable. Who knows if he would have believed me on my own, I can tell you almost no one does out of therapy, so I never tell anyone anything bad about my mother. I pretend she is normal to avoid being seen like a crazy lying ***** myself.
Come to think of it I'm kind of mad about this.. My therapist before this one seemed to believe me. All I did was cry with her. She was mute, didn't touch me, had strict boundaries. All I did was cry for literally full hour sessions from moment one to 60 about my parents, and she in fact did say a couple things leading me to believe she actually believed me.
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