Job: I teach, so I'm around kids a lot. I don't feel judged (much) by them because they're children. I avoid the staff room and don't go out to coworkers social things, nor do I take part in potlucks. I eat in my friend's classroom and run clubs at lunch so that I don't have to be around my coworkers often. At the same time, I make sure to be friendly and have small chitchat so that I can do my best at fitting in.

Friends: I have a lot of aquaintances because I'm good at small chat. It will take months and months before I do something with someone that I want to be friends with - there will be a lot of "oh we should do this" before it ever happens. Once I form a friendship I tend to focus on their needs and wants - often I'll adopt their favourite pasttimes to share with them (it does require me to actually enjoy it, it'll just become a bigger focus when I'm with them). I don't really share whatever I'm feeling, although I give off the appearance of trust because I can share a lot of my past; facts that sound uncomfortable and very personal. When someone stops initiating much contact with me, I quickly reciprocate because I assume it means they don't like me.

Family: Pretty much no contact. What I have is superficial. I avoid it because it's not a very healthy family.

Social Gatherings: I do quite well at these as I'm proficient at chit chat. Especially if I'm drinking or hypomanic, because then I'm very chatty and quite bubbly. I tend to take the path of hiding in plain sight. Then again, this is also when I'm most likely to literally disappear - I'll panic and leave without telling anyone. Even if I'm hammered. I'll often cancel/decline going to small-group things, especially if they're at someone's house. I'm more likely to go out somewhere public where no one is hosting.

Relationships: I've never initiated anything, in regards to starting or maintaining a relationship, nor with setting the pace of things within one. I've rarely turned someone down because I feel like I should give them a chance. I pretty much never express any of my own needs or desires and it's focused on them, because I'm overly worried about rejection and being judged. Every time I try, things never go well. I've ended up in a lot of unhealthy relationships, although never abusive.