I just finished a support group training and I felt so uncomfortable because it was moving way too fast and I don't really have any self-esteem or confidence. And so there was pizza for lunch and I forced myself to eat more because I was so upset with myself because I felt like I kept failing in the training. I graduated from it, which is good, but I don't want to force myself to eat when one, I'm not really hungry at all, and two, be OK with uncomfortable feelings and not to fill them with food to make myself sick. I do this because I think that I deserve to feel bad, because I think that I am a truly a bad person. Such a terrible day, I spent 15 minutes just crying in front of the director of youth services at the organization just feeling terrible.