The last few months I've been spending a lot of money off and on which is usual for me when in an up cycle. but for almost a month now I've been off my medication. bad I know but I simply couldn't afford it this month.. I've been depressed. the usual tearfulness, hole in my chest, hanging out in bed, feeling of impending doom, and boredom as well as touchy. but I've also beenpretty sociable when I go out and playful at work and dancing at home and feeling and dressing cute. I've also had a very strong urge to shop and spend a lot of money. I'm already in debt. I'm not even sure what state I'm in right now. all I know is that I'm mainly depressed yet have these other things going on. does anyone also spend money recklessly when depressed as well as hypo/manic?