It would not surprise me at all if you were being discriminated against, because we live in a world full of ignorant people. Society is just so very sad. Nobody cares about helping their fellow men (and women) any more.

I have noticed that in smaller, seaside type towns, the folk greet you. They are nice to you and seem friendly, well-mannered people. It can come as a surprise. But in busy cities such as Edinburgh where I live, you are just another face in the crowd. If you were to just extend your hand to a person to offer a friendly greetings, that person would think you were a nut. Edinburgh has everything you could want. Everything, but friends.

The poorer get poorer and the rich get richer. It is a shame, but it is true. People are just out for what they can get nowadays and to hell with others. But I believe people like that will eventually get their comeuppance. If they have that much money, why not choke on it? Such scum.

All my support workers are indeed quite dippy. One guy was with me months ago, around Easter time. This was during a support shift. He recommended I go buy A4 paper to make a petition for other service users to sign it after I come up with that idea, to try to get my former support workers back that I got banned from working with. So we were later in this place called Number 6 that service users go to. There was an Easter party at the time and I just tore off a large bit of paper from something to get people to write their names on it, after explaining what it was about. Well, I could swear blind I later caught the support guy blabbing to a member of staff about it, because I walked into the small kitchen just off the computer room and he had a right grin on his face. Then someone pulled me up about it immediately after that, saying it was not fair to involve other people since they would not be aware of why I was doing it. So I reckon he snitched on me. That is all they do. There is no way a service user would have been able to grass me up in that small amount of time. It was him. There is no doubt in my mind that they are so untrustworthy. This is partially why I ended my support. After all, it was this very snitching that compounded my entire charade. And I even ended up in prison over it.

Sure, they will have shifts with you if you go ahead with them and the staff will listen to all your crap, as long as it is on their watch and they are not going a minute over their allocated time. But once your back is turned, it all gets jotted down somewhere and I just know that, because I know them, basically. Oh, I have seen them checking their watch at the door if I have kicked off and they need to leave, since they do not get paid after the shift is over. That is kind of rude.

You are pretty much confessing things to the 'police of the autism world', so please, do remember to be careful what you say to your caregivers, or likewise. What people do not know will not hurt them. Also, try to remember that even the nicest of the nice can be another wolf in sheep's clothing. This is all solid advice, that I know I need to take myself.

Just a spoonful of sugar makes the medicine go down.