Sunrise - I think I feel that way about my T. It is a little different because she is a women, but I really want her to be as calm and happy in her "real" outside of therapy life as she seems when she's with me. I want what I see in therapy to be the real her, not an act.

I have to admit it bothered me a bit when Pink was able to "lol" at being with a married man. This is probably some kind of transference because I see that from the angle of what it would feel like to be the wife that was being cheated on. (Pink I'm not angry at you, it is the responsiblity of the married person to make the choice, just had to get it off my chest.)