Hello Constantinos: I am sorry to read of your struggles. It sounds as though, from reading what you wrote, you are in a relationship that is no longer working for you. Is that correct? You mentioned that you have no one to talk to and no support. It is, of course, only on the internet, but there is allot of support & many people to talk to here on PC. So I want to encourage you to keep posting here. Perhaps the more you write about your situation, the clearer it will become to you in your own mind, and the easier it will become for you to write about it. Please try to not resort to cutting yourself if you can avoid it. My best wishes to you...