over the past few weeks ive been feeling rough again,with nightmares on a nightly basis, then yesterday everything got to me, by 7pm i was hiding in my bed feeling sorry for myself, fighting all the old urges, i had already plucked up the courage to make a doctors appointment, this means explaing how i feel and all the other things, im on the highest dose of my medication but ive been on the same med since march 05 the change is i started on two tabs daily one in the morning and one at night, ive been on three at night now for about 11mths, and i havent seen anyone since i had to see the doc back in january so he could write out my prescriptions, and then he never had all my notes, so here i am the only real support i get is here, and now the last few days are hard as we are having problems with our phone line and i keep getting disconected
i try to keep busy but sometimes this is hard because trying to keep busy when its just me but its not its hubby as well