Roughly a year ago I was diagnosed with bipolar and prescribed medication accordingly. (I never noticed a difference in cognition when I started the medicine) Here's the thing, I don't think I have it. To date, I have never had a manic attack or anything close to one. I go through random fits of depression for no reason lasting anywhere from a week to 6 months. On very rare occasions, I'll find myself suddenly euphoric for a second or two then I'll overthink it and it will dissipate.

If left idle, I can think my way into depression spells as well, credit to my ADD. It probably sounds ignorant, so excuse my naivety but I almost wish I would have a manic attack just so I would know I actually had Bipolar. My moods range room extremely depressed to neutral--rarely excited or enthusiastic.

I don't know if I'm in denial or if I'm misinterpreting what it actually means to suffer from Bipolar. I've never felt comfortable saying I'm bipolar cause I truly don't think I have it. My thoughts are that I just suffer from depression. Hopefully you guys have some ideas or similar experiences, so any input would be appreciated. Thank you.