I've watched the "pro-ana" and "pro-mia" sites for about two years as I wanted to see the poison my now ex wife was being fed. Stopped visiting about a year ago...

Please promise at least you won't visit those types of sites again...stay here - much more supportive. ED's are very dangerous physically and mentally in many ways. I'm sure you have a pretty good idea of what they can do.

Since you are on prozac - you've gone to some kind of professional? Is regular therapy visits involved? It is less about the food and more about a coping method or control. Having said that, I would still highly recommend that you have a nutrionalist help you develop a meal plan. If at all possible stay out of grocery stores at all costs; I would have someone else purchase the food and help you rid yourself of triggering foods. If you have family living with you, I would encourage you to let your loved ones know...

By the way 5 lbs - really is not that much and you indicate your BMI is still healthy - is that healthly on the low side or high side? Is it really necessary to worry about 5 lbs? Just a whole bunch of thoughts to think about.