Every Sunday is always hard for me because then that means that I have to be functional again, go to work, get up, be a human being … That just seems like so much work, and I don't ever want to do it, I just want to spend time with my woman and that's all I want to do. She always asks "What's wrong now ?" And I just say nothing because she doesn't understand/gets so annoyed with my depression and that I don't want to ever do anything. Some days I do want to do stuff, but some days I just don't want to. Why do I feel so BLAH and un lifelike ???!?!?! This is such a annoying feeling, better than depression though, maybe I just need to "get into" something, like working out and work on my body, because I'm not very happy about it, maybe I'll just do that. I just need to occupy my day until I go to work or my appointments, I just need to be involved with something, something that is able to occupy a lot of my time, I need to get back into reading maybe too. I do have a lot of books, ok I'll try to work out more and read more. At least do that daily, at least one of them, I need to feel worthwhile. I need my life to contribute to something, I need to look forward to something, I'm moving into a house with my lady so I'm looking forward to that, but I still feel like I'll feel the same way, maybe my woman and I can do something together, read a book together, smoothing that I can look forward to an involve her with as well. I'll propose this tonight, and talk to her about what I posted tonight. Hopefully she doesn't get annoyed with me, I think she understands my depression but she gets so annoyed with it, what can an ally do for helping me with depression ? HELP !