I'm in the same situation right now. My psychiatrist tells me frequently that she's convinced that I have bipolar II, but I honestly don't see it. I looked up the symptoms online, but it doesn't fully make sense to me. I do some of the stuff, but other stuff is like...eh...I don't know.

I know exactly what you mean about feeling neutral, because I'm the same way. I'm either so depressed that my skin hurts and I can hardly open my eyes or I'm an emotionless shell of a person who just acts like what others would classify as a normal human being. Do you have any other extreme emotions like anger or frustration or anxiety? According to my psychiatrist, you don't have to be euphoric to be manic. It's just an extreme agitated emotion. So your mania might look different than everyone else's.