I have always been that way. Even though I am a pretty macho guy and played sports and worked construction all my life I still prefer to hang with the women. I am comfortable standing around the BBQ BSing with the boys but it gets old and I find myself in the living room with the women. Women have more meaningful conversations. Men are afraid of intimacy. I am afraid of intimacy with other men. I don't want to always play the macho role. I have to say that over the years one on one I have meaningful friendships with other men, but get a group of men together and it is always a pissing contest and it gets old.

I never had an emotionally intimate relationship with my Dad and his friends. It was all about drinking beer, fishing, hockey, and so on. I have nothing against the macho roles men play....that I play. Protector, provider, problem solver, etc. I very much honor those roles, but there is more to the picture.