hi, I think it might be worth exploring it with your T. I understand you feeling uncomfortable sharing it with her, maybe you can do it when you are ready.. I had a dream about my therapist once, too, I told her a few sessions later. In that period I was feeling particularly vulnerable (actually it's pretty recent, about 1 month ago). The session before the next client happened to come earlier and rang the bell since also the main door was closed and my T had to go open. So I left. we were ending the session anyway but the bell ringing suddenly unsettled me. Short after I dreamt I was home with her and the same old lady rang at my door and T said something about having to go away with her as that was a better client, nicer to talk to and not as dirty as me. They left and I felt so abandoned. But my T goes above and beyond with me so I didn't even need to explore it that much as it's crystal clear that it was a reflection of my fear of abandonment in a triggering time of the year.
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