he has his 50% to pull in the relationship. He needs to educate himself, enough, to know that though the job was a disappointment, with your ptsd and depression, it's more than that. Of course you are trying to educate him, he needs to know how to handle life's setbacks, so that you keep sensing a sense of soulmate, friend, companion, and compassion from him. With abusive childhoods, things like these are amplified. I'm sure, you'd know what to do, in case he pulls his back again(reference from ptsd forum), it's up to him to know how these things are for you, to keep you supported and ready to lift you up, as that's what companions do. So, because he's not educating himself, you're left not only feeling low about that job, but also doubtful about your relationship, double stressor.
I don't always mention my illness, i can count my flares on one hand, over the past (nearly) 15 years.
And I see this far from a pity party, ((((WW))))) It's important, to feel heard, understood, cherished, nurtured and more.

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