I am SO sorry to hear your IP experience was awful. Mine was so positive, and I encouraged you to go in so you could get some much needed help on the basis that you'd be treated right. I'm sorry it didn't work out that way and I hope you'll try another hospital, because you still sound pretty shaky and need help that's more extensive than what outpatient can offer. Wishing you a better time on the next try, MagicsMom.