Yeah.. im scared cause the last time i feel so depressed.. im doing something terible and its not easy to get over with. Im trying my best to use every coping resources i have.. but none of them seems working right now.. even if it does.. it will only work temporarily and in a few hours i will feel the same. And im running out of idea on how to escape or cope this feelings.. as in it get worst right now.. especially when i see people are super excited and happy planning something for christmas and new years eve. I feel jealous, traped all alone and got nowhere to run from this..