2 of my sisters and my mother announced this weekend that they are coming for Labor Day. As per usual, nobody asked me, they just decided to make it happen. As far as I know, I don't need an intervention, unless it's one to get me to stop eating Oreos before the bag is gone. ;-)

Anyway. My mom was my abuser. Everybody asks why I still have contact with her, and all I can say is, lots and lots of guilt (lousy reason, I know).

Last week my pdoc upped one of my meds. It's supposed to be sedating and calming. Instead, for the last few days at bedtime, I've been terrified and panicky.

So that's my question -- am I weird, or do any of you who have been sexually abused freak out in the dark? Because I go through periods where I am absolutely terrified at having to turn the lights out and go to bed. I don't know why this is bugging me, 26 years after the abuse stopped, but it happens every now and then and I just wondered if I'm alone or if it's "normal."

Thanks.

Candy

There used to be a real me, but I had it surgically removed. -- Peter Sellers