The behaviors I have now are no different than the ones I have had for years but now I stop and analyze every thought I have and wonder if it is BP driven or just is. Before I never thought about it at all and it was just me.

I have been painting every room in my house obsessively for weeks now. Before I would have thought "cool, I'm getting stuff done". Now I think "is this hypomania?" My behaviors aren't so different from "normal" people so why can't I just BE without over thinking?

When I get frustrated at something am I just frustrated or is it something else? UGH!! I think I liked it better before dx when I wasn't thinking about my brain every second.