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Originally Posted by Freygeyst
Hey there, could it be that you maybe have no psychical gender at all? It's called "Neutrois". They are actually many people like that. In some ways, I really feel like you. Unfortunately born in a female body, I would decribe myself as "mentally genderless with male tendencies". I agree with you that female sex organs look disgusting; and I'm not comfortable with my other female parts either. Made me feel quite hateful from time to time. Even though I'm usually attracted to men, there are some special women who I find very beautiful or attractive (even with their female shapes) - I just don't want to be like that. I don't feel like it. And somehow, I'm glad I don't. It's really hard to find yourself and inner peace sometimes, I know that. There are times you find it and it stays constant for a time, then, changes come again. That never really stops, I guess... but maybe it's good that way. I hope you'll be able to find your inner peace some day! Never forget that what truly matters is the inside. And with that, of course I don't mean inner organs - I mean your mind. The mind can be anything, the mind is free.
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Nah. I think labels like that are a bit unnecessary. Maybe they aren't for you, but for me, I just prefer to reject the gender roles I don't like and take in the ones I do. I think I'm afraid of male attention due to CSA and that's why I avoid dressing better or working on my body more.
It's been a while since I made this thread and I've observed more stuff. I think I hate the female body because I hate my own so much from the abuse from my father as well as my mother criticizing it so much that all I see are flaws. I think that instead of me recognizing getting jealous of other women's bodies, I intentionally find everything wrong with it to make myself feel better.
They don't usually make me feel uncomfortable anymore. They mostly just bore me. I still hate breasts for some reason or another. Large naked breasts. Not sure why.
I still love the male body. I've recently been even more inclusive about the body type. Skinny, chubby, toned, quite fat, muscular, hairy, clean shaven. I love hairy a lot. Idk. I just think they are beautiful.