People "didn't like" me when I was a child. I was "too" anxious, "too" quiet. I was the target of bullies and abusers. I didn't have long enough claws to fight back or sharp enough teeth. I was abused by adults and children, I didn't even fight back when playground bullies attacked me. Stupid fuzzy

Now, I find myself increasingly alone. I don't have many friends IRL, I let them go at the slightest hint of unkindness or even "normal" flaws that so many people have. I do not like my life ... If I didn't have a stack of medical issues, some of which are serious, it would be so much easier to change my life