I don't think my mind is the problem.... its my heart. I try so hard to talk it out of the race, when it beats at an alarming pace (someone else's lyrics). I don't think it beats. I often lay on my left side just to listen to it skip, gallop and pause. that brief moment of silence gives me false hope....every time.

thank you for those words of encouragement. I will visit this post often just to remember it. : )