i do too believe bringing children into this world and exposing them to all this mental and physical pain is one of the most cruel things to do with them.To me , it means they create an enormous load of bother and stress ,they create problems that afterwards need to be fixed, problems that simply and beautifully could have never existed.i think people really need to think more about this.I'm sorry you feel so bad, but from another perspective , i feel relieved and happy that there are other people who think the same way as i do.I know it doesn't solve anything for you , sorry i don't know how to help but you may feel better by more explaining your thoughts and feelings (and maybe therapy helps, not for Curing those thoughts , but to be able to cope despite of them).