i talked to my sister about my nightmares and panic attacks and crying and stuff. shes a licensed social worker. she says it sounds like post traumatic stress from experiencing the past events of my dad.

i remember...well i dont remember if it was the first or second time he had a stroke but one of those times when i found my dad face down on the floor with his head cracked open at the skin and blood pouring out. i called my sister and was screaming at the top of my lungs scared and crying. i called 911 and they told me to put like a towel around the wound. (he was passed out) and i just remember taking off my brand new plain white shirt and i was in my bra and just wrapping it around his head to stop the bleeding.
my new white shirt was just drenched in blood.

i just wanna burst into tears right now but im so scared to...