** Trigger ** (I am new and not completely familiar with the language I am allowed to use, so if I am breaking any rules please let me know)

I dream about her a lot. Once I woke up really disturbed because in my dreams I sexually abused an unknown, mature woman, and my T was watching it happen. I did it just so my T would see it, and it would make her afraid of me. I am female also and am not attracted to same sex.
I also had a dream where me and my T were both naked (we are both female), and she led me to the lake. Then I lay down on the grass next to the lake, and she lay down on me. That's all that happened. Those dreams wasn't disturbing, though it may sound like they was. I felt like I am an infant and she is the mother and there was nothing sexual about it.
There were also dreams when I am afraid of her, when I completely adore her and so on.. sometimes it's difficult to follow.

I can't bring myself to tell her about it, but I wish I could. It really makes me wonder what those dreams mean.

S.