I am not well, very tired of the constantly trying new medication and dose, like most of us here I have to cope with new medication, and later, very soon realize that is not working for me.

Last Wednesday my Pdoc prescribed Lexapro 5 mg, starting slowly with 1/2 at night for 4 days, and after that 5 mg for another 4 days, and finally reach 10 mg per night.

After 48 hours of taken the half of the 5 mg (Lexapro) my poor mind went totally restless, irritable, racing thoughts, feeling worthless, feeling like manic, horrible and worsen panic attacks, the worse!
My pdoc suggested to add Seroquel 1/2 of 25 mg every 4 hours, and there you go !!!

I sleep all the time, plus even in my dreams I was restless if that makes any senses ...
Every time I was awake, last Friday and Saturday all I can do was sit, and badly walk.
Nothing was right, my mind was so confuse, I am someone that can't tolerated anti depressant.

Anyway, after 3 days of nonsenses and suffering so much I decided to stop the Lexapro. That was yesterday, no one can helped so I wait till today.

Today I called my pdoc, and her Nurse promise to give back to me asap. Nothing happen, no one call me and now the Clinic is close.

I am now for 24 hours with out the 1/2 of 5 mg Lexapro, still dizzy, but less restless, confuse about my future, because there are so many triggers in my life at the time, my significant other still very sick, he needs me, we don't even know if he will be able to stand still for 4 hours when he come back to work after a mayor surgery. This are times to be strong, to keep my faith in a better tomorrow, faith because is more than a hope what I need, I believe that sooner or later a doctor will stabilize me again, I have to believe that will happen, I am not going to give up hope and faith.