Well, I was so miserable today that I called him on my lunch break and told him exactly how I felt, how scared I was that if something ever went really wrong with me and I had to go to the ER or something, and he couldn't tell them what was wrong or what meds I was taking especially if I was in no condition to tell them myself.

To make a long story short, he really thought he knew more than he does. My efforts to explain things I think ended up confusing him more than helping him and he didn't know how to tell me, I guess. I keep my meds locked up, which I suppose doesn't help, but as I pointed out to him, I have always told him what drugs I take and if my pdoc makes any changes, I tell him that too. Apparently, I need to write it down and put it in his wallet.

I also asked him to look up PTSD and even gave him some ideas as to where to look on the internet for reliable information. I don't remember if I've ever asked him to do that before. I have taken him to many therapy appointments over the years, the last one a few months ago so that he could what I do during EMDR sessions. I think before that, it freaked him out a little. He didn't say much afterwards - typical man, right? He just said he felt better about it after that.

So I hope maybe this time I got through to him. I haven't seen him yet today since we work different shifts and he won't be home for a few more hours.

Thanks for all the input, y'all. It really helps.

WW