Grey Wolf, most days I feel like you do. I'm able to block it out a lot of days, but overall, it's my honest opinion. Sometimes I get nervous that my wish may be coming true, such as the case all of last week when I suffered from my self diagnosis of trapped gas. It made me feel like I was having a heart attack. My left chest area felt raw for a week. The skin felt as though it had been burned. One night, if I had had the strength, money, and insurance, I would have driven myself to the hospital. I wasn't afraid of dying, I just didn't want to lie around for days suffering if indeed it was a heart attack or a stroke.

Damn it, I survived. I am sorry that you're feeling so low. You are not the only one. It will pass. It will come back. As for myself being bipolar, my opinion is it won't ever end. It hopefully can get better for you. As for me, it gets better at times, but it will always get worse also. Bipolar is like a plague.