For about 9 months now I have been what I think is paranoid. I am paranoid that people think that I am gay and also that everyone, even close friends, don't like me even though they have said the opposite. I started feeling this way after I experimented with 2-5-i, an acid like drug and shrooms. I took each one one time and had bad experiences with both of them. I experienced heightened perception levels of body language if anyone can relate and couldn't talk. I was stuck in my head the whole time. I feel like people can tell what I am thinking. I then think that everything they say is a negative subliminal message directed towards me. This is all people, not just friends. I piece together bits and pieces of what people say to fit the story that all people think I'm gay. (No problems with gay people, I just like girls and don't like people thinking that I'm gay.) I've searched body language cues, narcissistic disorders, ideas of reference, delusions of reference, schizotypal disorders, other personal stories, and met with a counselor two times. Can anyone define what's going on with me? I'm 21 years old if that helps at all. Any advice, insight would be greatly appreciated.
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