Can you call someone? You don't have to do this alone. I am here wishing you to make a phone call and ask for help. Believe me you are going to get better, am not in your country but I am sure there have to be an ER you can go and even if you think that you can't go you should go, don't be alone. Better being at the hospital for a while, scroll up and read other post here, from yesterday, you will see that you are not alone. Big Hugs