A little better.Thanks.I found some kind of psychiatrist and i will surely go.It was awful to be in that "room",now i got out i feel very relieved.I realised,after doing some research by myself,that this might be an alter,met in dissociative identity disorder,between my childhood personality and me now.It made sense,because i became a new person suddenly in 1 year and this might have made a dual personality.I freaked out when i read this and that also explains the memory loss i had.I believe i will surely need expert help quickly before it happens again...

But i can't figure out something.My symptoms match both bipolar disorder and DID.But why in that episode i could understand what i was doing when I got out of reality?