Hi Roxy, I can completely relate to your post. I had a similar experience a couple of years ago. Although it happened with my "best mate". She "thought" yes thought, that I was hitting on her ex. Anyhow the night went from bad to worse and she actually ended up beating me up, I came out with a cut fat lip, bald patches where she had ripped my hair out, and lots of scratches to my face and neck too. The following day she didn't actually apologise but she felt guilty about the event, saying it should never have happened... However even after that she still proceeded to tell both her mates and our mutual mates that I had slept with her ex... All of which was not true....
Anyway to my point... The anger I felt was very much like yours, day in and day out thoughts of anger, hatred and thoughts and ideas of how I wanted to get her back for the lies. It was so difficult to stop these thoughts from coming.
Then one day I don't really know how (so this probably isn't going to help) but I just thought.... Hang on a minute I'm a good person, I haven't done anything wrong and it's her that has done wrong NOT ME. It's her that has a problem NOT ME. It's her problem NOT MINE.
So.... Remember HE has the problem NOT YOU!!
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