Guys, im on the edge again. Two of mine friends have busy lives and cant support me during this time when i need it the most. The girl that i had crush on, keep ignoring me and declining my offers to meet again. I decided to delete her from social network before she would delete me first. lm such a loser. I feel so attracted to girls while they always hurt me. Recently i plunged deeply in the memories of my life. It was like watching bad, ridiculous, awful and cheap movie about a awkward guy who failed every aspect of social life. After i rewatched my life, the suicide urges started to appear again. I dont want to be addicted on those stupid zoloft pills once again, but it seems like the only way. Is there anyone here who had such deadly depression and was able to escape it? Except for vital - dude, i respect you, but it seems like your depression wasnt so bad in the first place. Your thread that you keep promoting could not help me, unfortunately. But thanks anyway.