Normally I really enjoy Christmas but since my depression has worsened I'm definitely dreading Christmas Eve especially. With this bout I start to get so tired once it gets dark out, and our Christmas Eve is spent with my husband's family at a marathon gathering that starts early afternoon and goes until at least 10 p.m. or so. Normally I go up to bed at about 8 p.m. and lie there thinking until I take my bedtime meds at 9 p.m. I've been thinking about my husband and I taking separate cars Christmas Eve so I can leave early if need be.