I understand what you mean about being "too" much of something, and at the same time "not enough" of something.

You're just right for everything Fuzzy. It was your abusers and bullies who had too much and not enough of stuff - too much anger, hate, not enough compassion or sensibility.

But you? You're just right as you are.

And you are making change - even since I've been on the forum, I've noticed you starting to use words more often to express yourself. That's a huge change, and something to be very proud of for so many reason!