I've been in a relationship with my boyfriends for about 5 years maybe 6. We have gone through a lot . He's cheated , I've caught him talking to other girls after that. Things were going good but now it's like I hate him. I take care of everything in our relationship even in our household. I feel like I always have fought for our relationship and tried to make things work. But now it's just getting harder. This past month he has been working a lot. He's only going to be working this many hours for this month. However he comes home and either goes out with his friends or straight to bed. We've been planning for a month to go away to see my family and go to a football game, I thought it would be fun. He texts me saying he's not going to be able to make it because he works. Sunday we had dinner planned he didn't respond he showed up at 10pm I was dressed, he walks in and says where are you going ? We argued because he forgot and then he falls asleep on the couch. Then the next day before he says I'm going to be home late tonight I was fine with it because he was letting me know ahead of time so I couldn't complain. He shows up at 11:30 at night then get dressed and is like I'm not sleeping tonight I'm going to Josh's house and Were going to work at from there. I believed him it's not like I think he's cheating but I didn't get why he would spend his only few hours before work with his friend. And not me. He told me he rather be out. He also said I'm pushing him away because all I do is fight with him. And that he wished he lied to me. It's to the point that all i can do is cry which bothers him. My feelings are hurt because I don't know how to react. When I'm upset about something because I don't ask for anything . Just for time . Like Sunday evenings. We live together so I get him still having a life. But it's just like he never wants to talks about our issues. I just wish they could go away but the only way that would work is if I treat him like a total *****. I have no idea what to do anymore. Just want him to be more considerate of me and my feelings. Instead he says , this is just how I am. It just makes me feel bad . If I say you don't act like you love me he says your always putting words in my mouth. It's like I can't win