I had a really bizarre trauma dream last night. I'm not sure why I am always an adult in my trauma dreams, and why it's always my younger brother who is a child being abused. That's not how it was when we were growing up. And I'm not a violent person. I'm not sure why I wanted to kill him. And now I'm really anxious today because of it.

In my dream, I was in the store shopping. I was an adult on my own, but for some reason, my younger brother was a child. He was with our dad at the store and I ran across them. I ignored them and went on with my shopping, until the announcement system said something about a straw hat laying in one of the aisles destroyed by terrorists (not sure where that came from...). They were calling for a store associate to go clean it up. Just then, my younger brother (who is a child in my dream, even though I'm an adult) wandered around the corner and grabbed a straw hat near where I was standing and mentioned something about the other destroyed one being one that our dad was going to buy.
Several minutes later, he appears again and is crying and says that he got the wrong hat and needs to get the right one. I knew in my dream that he had been beaten and yelled at for grabbing the wrong one, and I was absolutely furious. My dad was sitting in a tent that was set up in the middle of the store, and I went in there with the intention of choking him to death. I yelled at him, and then started to hit him and attack him, but while I was choking him, I realized it probably wouldn't be a good idea to kill him. I would instead beat him up and scare him. When I got finished with that, I woke up. Such a weird dream.