>talk therapy
Can't afford it anymore.

>meds
Don't trust them. They are poison for mind and their positive effect is doubtful.

>self-help
My mind is stuck in self-destructive pattern. I tried to do positive affirmations, but in the end negative ones prevailed because they appear in the obsessive manner.

>exercise
I want to exercise, but lately i don't have time for it, when i coming home at evening, its so late and i don't have energy to do it. I will try to find time for it, but still there is not much possibilities.

>diet
What diet?

>sleep
There is a problem. I go to bed very late because im afraid to lie in darkness for hours and have those depressive thoughts. And instead i sit on the internet until i feel like im ready to just drop and fall asleep immediately .

>therapeutic relocation or detachment (get away from significant stressors)
Impossible. I see my ex-friend house everyday from the window.

I just looked at my old social network posts and saw the likes from my ex-account which she deleted long time ago. It hit me right in the feels. How could i lose her? Im such an idiot. No other girl will come to my life until i become wealthy and confident. It will be years of struggling, while right now i need nice girl support so much.