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Originally Posted by dandylin
UP and down during this season. I miss the old, family times, but I think what I miss is an illusion. So many things I thought were true; have turned out to be lies
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When I was younger, I had a big family and we all hung out together all the time, but Christmas was really, really special. It turns out most of those people are a**holes or dead.
I have a much smaller family now and consider my friends part of it. (I don't have many friends.) One of my best friends is having a "real" Christmas at her house and that's where my mother and I will spend the day. She has little kids that are going to be all excited and happy. I feel sad just thinking about it because I know my depression will flare up despite or because of the festive environment.
My father died in 2005, so this will be the tenth anniversary of our last Christmas with him. He was a huge source of holiday joy.
I know it could be worse but I'm just not feeling the holiday spirit.
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* Panic Disorder w/ Agoraphobia
* Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder
* Hoarder
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* Major Depressive Disorder w/ Recurrent Major Depressive Episodes
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