Thank you both for your replies. I truly appreciate it. I had this behavior under control for years, but I am not doing as well these days. My doctor asked about the bruise on my leg today. I replied with "what bruise". We did discuss it a bit, but all I could tell her was that I was very angry at myself.

I will definitely take the suggestion of discussing how to respond to my husband with my doctor. I truly do not think he would understand. And I am afraid that he will realize that I am not the person he thought he married.

Like I said earlier, I rarely hurt myself in places that people could notice. And I do my best to hide scars from when I was a teen. I guess the best answer would be to stop it all together then I wouldn't have to worry about explanations at all.

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